Terry, if you don’t mind, I want to talk more about what I was saying before you took over.
No, I don’t mind, go ahead.
It’s about you not resisting me. By you accepting all of this and going with me, I can’t tell you how much it’s affecting me. I feel so good. You have no idea, for you to just accept how you are - these bad things about yourself; and it is how you are, it all makes perfect sense, I can see it, it is you; but that doesn’t make me feel bad about you, or even hate you or anything, it does in fact make me like you more. You’re open, and open to me, you’re not your usual mostly closed-off self. And I hate it when you close off to me, you just sit there blocking me out watching the dam cricket or whatever it is. But now I feel you’re letting me in, into you Terry, the real hidden Terry, and that Terry I want to know and be with.
So Annie, you like it when I’m like this, saying how bad a person I am?
No, I just like it when you’re being more real. I don’t care how bad you are, we’re all bad, we’ve all got problems, and what’s bad anyway; but I do like it when you are just saying it how it is, that’s what I want, yes, I’m realising it more now, I want us both to be more real and true, and not putting on some false show or act, pretending that we like and love each other. I’d much rather that we just say it straight. If we don’t like something about each other, then we say it, and we can talk about it, bring it all out, like you did more. So we can really get into the depths of ourselves, you know, find out how we really tick. Yes, that’s what I want Terry, I’m sick of just having a superficial relationship with you, and that’s what I now think we’ve been having all these years. It’s what I have with everyone, how people are with each other, but as I can’t do anything about them, I can do something about it when I’m with you.
Yes, well Ann, I do agree with you, I can see what you mean. And it is something I can see that I have to think more about, it’s certainly a big change. But is has shown me there are other aspects to ourselves that we don’t usually expose. It is something of a different approach to life, that’s for sure. But I’ll have to adjust to it. I hope you don’t expect too much of me. I think I’ll need a lot of time because it could make me see everything differently, and I don’t know if I’m ready for that.
No Terry, I don’t mind how long you take. I just think that if we want to do it, it will take its own course, we can just see what happens. I don’t want to pressure you, or threaten you. Your doing what you’ve done has shown me at least that you’re capable of it, and that there is something to what that Feeling Bad? website said. So I feel good about it all. I reckon we’ll be able to work our way through all our bad stuff, all so long as we want to keep speaking about it and wanting to know what it’s all about.
Yeah, maybe you’re right.
Oh there’s Rod. We’ll talk more about it when I get back.